Withdrawal

Crap! I'm going through withdrawal from the Creative Busy Hands daily digi scrapbooking freebies! Every day they are waiting here for me after lunch like a new bunch of presents under the tree. But they are still not here today, and I'm finding myself starting to panic! Hope everything's alright over at CBH :)

Ugh, crappy weekend.

Halloween Scrapbook

Here is a Halloween scrapbook (a real one) that I made two years ago:

Cheer up, it's Halloween!

It's almost Halloween - my favorite holiday!! I'm trying to get myself psyched up to have fun and enjoy it. Despite my social failings, I do have plans for the weekend. Tonight, my roomie invited me to go to a haunted house and see a scary movie. Then tomorrow there is a beer festival during the day and then a Halloween street party in Ketchum at night. A bunch of us are going to the street party: me, my fiance (Henry), some of his friends, my friend Kira, and my roomie and all of her friends. All of the bars along the street will have music and costume contests. We might head down to Hailey later to the Hailey Hotel, because Henry and I had a blast there two Halloweens ago. I've still gotta try on my costume and see if it looks OK. It's a little skimpier and tighter than I'd like. The dogs have costumes too: They both have bee costumes. I think that will be cute - a little bee and a big bee. Rocky also has a little headless horseman costume that makes him the horse with the little horseman riding him. I'll post pictures of all the costumes and fun later on. For now, I'll post a Halloween layout (below) that I created. It was mostly created using Chaos Lounge's ESS October Color Challenge kit. The creepy girl and the "Witching Hour" word art are from other designers. I'll do my best to find and post their information soon. Hope you like it :)

Yes, I'm still alive.

I am down in the dumps, and have been neglecting all of my social duties while struggling to just stay afloat emotionally. I feel like a terrible friend. I only see the people that I have to interact with on a daily basis, but I haven't made any effort toward hanging out with friends, and I feel really guilty about it. I rarely return phonecalls, and hardly ever respond to emails. I recently made two new friends via email/blogger that I was really excited about. Well, I guess it wasn't recently; it was more like several months ago. But my grip on time is really tenuous. One day I just stopped writing back. I kept telling myself that I would do it tomorrow, but kept putting it off. Now I'm afraid that they think I stopped writing because I don't like them or because I'm mean. Neither of those is the case. But I'm afraid that no excuse or explanation will be acceptible. I also have a good friend who is a mother to two boys and lives 20 miles out of town. I have to go to her if I want to see her because she is so busy with her kids. It feels like such a chore to get myself out there that I haven't seen her since early summer. I wish I would pick up the phone and call her and apologize, but I feel too paralyzed to do it. Someday I will - I just hope it won't be too late. I hope my friends won't give up on me.

It's been a really long time since I've posted. I turned 31 a couple weeks ago, and it was pretty uneventful. That also means that Henry and I have now been engaged for a year. We moved out of our house on Memorial Day weekend. It was a long and difficult process, taking up every waking hour of three days. We're still in the process of unpacking and organizing. He moved back in with his parents, and I moved back in with mine. We'll both be closer to our jobs, so hopefully less stress, but neither of us relishes the idea of living back with the 'rents. This spring has been really cold, wet and dark, and I'm really ready for some summer weather. I haven't been taking many photos lately; I'm trying to get back into that. Below are a few random shots:

Me loving sleepy Rocky

Rocky fell asleep in my arms. He never does that!

My Birthday